I'm sorry you can't stay..

I'm sorry you can't stay,

You have filled my veins with poison,

I'm sorry you cant stay,

I've deliberated & fear this is my only way,

I'm sorry you can't stay, 

Too many chances have been given away,

I'm sorry you can't stay,

My feelings have a better game to play,

I'm sorry you can't stay,

No words can express the words I need to say,

I'm sorry you can't stay,

You should have done more than just lay,

I'm sorry you can't stay,

It's nothin personal but its the price you pay,

I'm sorry you can't stay,

I hope you find a cure for yourself one day,

I'm sorry you can't stay,

My soul needs to learn to be okay,

I'm sorry you can't stay,

I can't promise you'll understand not even in the month of may,

I'm sorry you can't stay,

Your influence has made me fray,

I'm sorry you can't stay,

I deserve one day not filled with Grey,

I'm sorry you can't stay,

I have enough ghosts to slay,

I'm sorry you can't stay,

Don't think it's easy for me to stray,

I'm sorry you can't stay,

I lack confidence to stand still I will always sway,

I'm sorry you can't stay,

I'm sick of your vile served on a tray,

I'm sorry you can't stay,

The truth is no one believed did they,

I'm sorry you can't stay,

No leaving party I won't scream YEY,

I'm sorry you can't stay,

I'm sorry you just can't stay.. 

You have always been their in my life & given me good tips,

Like how to swim & ride my bike

And keep quiet while you kip.

Other stuff came naturally like our friendship.

For all the pocket-money lending,

And The hours listening to me venting,

For letting me off with lots of rule bending,

And believing me even when I was just inventing,

My respect for you is truly unending. 

As time is getting on its important that you know,

That you mean the world to me & helped to make me grow,

You are a great dad to me & my bro,

And I carry you in my heart wherever I go.

My memories of our adventures will never ever perish,

And please know that every day your strength & love I cherish.

So many special moments in each year,

But sharing them with you made them Dear,

Your a hero to me dad, so i never had to fear.

May you enjoy your day & an ice cold beer.

Happy Father's Day pops x

Summer

The hot air creates a breeze,

As it rushes through the trees,

Lifting and scattering all the leaves,

Faint sounds of buzzing honey bees,

Ice cream van sirens echo as a tease,

Everyone out in summer slogan tee's,

Today we don't dream about the sun overseas,

No complaints about your hay-fever sneeze,

Old men lounging in outdated capri's,

Teens dancing on fields to the latest CDs,

Smiling becomes a feel good disease,

People drag themselves away from facebook & their PCs,

For today the sun is brighter than all of these.. 

You paralysed me..

As you look down to me on this floor,

I hear your voice screech just once more,

Looking at you we both know the score,

Neither of our hearts can take anymore,

You have paralysed me forever more.

My eyes flutter fast and slowly they blink,

Something inside you decided to sink,

Your bitter words are starting to stink,

Living this way pushed me to the brink,

You have paralysed me, I can't think.

Fail me again I will never allow you to do,

I've learnt to do better than listen to you,

Many times I saved you but lost you too,

On the ability to love you have no clue.

You have paralysed me, I feel blue.

I stumbled but learnt to dance,

I got tired of giving you one last chance,

At your feet I give you one last glance,

This is the end of our lifetime stance.

You have paralysed me, I'm in a trance.

In you my creator I find i was matched,

You avoided me getting too attached,

Your love locked and sealed with a latch,

I find it hard to see you were a catch,

You have paralysed me,my pride I snatch

 

Nothing hurts more than seeing you die,

I see it every day when I look in your eye,

Everyone else seems to believe your lie,

But only your little girl hears you cry,

You have paralysed me, I have to say goodbye.

April of my life..

So as my clock ticks to 00:01 and we enter May 2013 I feel the need to take note and say WOW that was one of the best Aprils of my life..

On the 1st day of the month I packed my big smalls into a case and jetted off to Spain for 10 days of sun, sea and sangria.
We celebrated dads 50th birthday;

Met some cute animals:

And these cuties;

Watched some amazing shows:

Absolutely thrashed Ricky at bowling:

And had a lovely relaxing time with my fellow blood bonds:

I got home in time to celebrate Nicks birthday with a night out:

We had drinks and laughs before heading home on the late bus with my queenie:


I then attended a VIP event with Alison, Jackie, Nick, Rob, Claire and Cherise full of excellent art work and a very special set of prints by the wonderful Claire:

We ended the night in McDonald's and wobbled off home to sleep off the freebie wine.
I had my favourite boys round for a catch up:

And hugged the hair off buddy Flopper;

I had 6 fabulous days at college this month of which one day included this:

And the other saw me finish class 3 of my art journal course:

I also spent a full day at the cinema watching Bernie, iron man, oblivion and love is all you need and signed up with a hideous photo for an unlimited card.
I did this:

Got given these:

And these by my wonderful friends:

Spent time with my fur babies:

And spoilt them as always:

I went out for fish Friday:

Followed by a trip to the nottingham contemporary to see dumb things.

I celebrated Alison's birthday with cake:

And watched her squeak as she opened her present:

I took goofy photos:

I made pretty cards:

I babysat pickles the furby:

I laughed, i learnt and I joined the WI.
I met new people and gained new movie quotes but above all I made some amazing memories.
April, thank you for being good to me. I will never forget you :)
Peace out x